Surges of Insights::

Surge One: Be New
  1. Be new. Pure awareness, free of thought, is ever new.
  2. Be fresh. Old judgments, arrived at through limited knowledge, are no more valid. Drop them.
  3. Be open. Let new outlooks emerge, and lighten your burden.
  4. Be watchful. Let your mind’s false beliefs surface. Let them get exposed and leave you.
  5. Be still. Once in a while, see something (a flower, a child’s face, the blue sky) with no interference of thought.
  6. Be good-humored. After all, it is all a big sad joke.
  7. Be unbiased. See things as they are.
  8. Be alone. Conquer loneliness. Enjoy space; give space.
  9. Be. Do not worry about ‘becoming’. Let it happen.
WISH YOU A HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Swami Chidananda
January 1, 2003
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Two (Advanced): Basics of the Inquiry: Who am I?
  1. We are caught in the web of thoughts. The WAI inquiry takes us to the root cause of this web.
  2. Our joys and sorrows are centered in our memories. The WAI inquiry helps us go to the basis of memories.
  3. A self-image feeds memories, which in turn feed the self-image. The WAI inquiry hits at the self-image.
  4. The self-image (aham-vritti) is rooted in memories. The WAI inquiry thus shakes the foundations of memories.
  5. Memories and the self-image are a vicious circle. The WAI inquiry cuts this vicious circle.
  6. Changing people, places, positions or situations cannot lead to ending of sorrow. Sorrow ends in the silence of pure awareness.
  7. The self-image is the only obstacle to pure awareness. The WAI inquiry therefore questions the true credentials of the self-image.
  8. Millions of thoughts – good and bad – revolve around the self-image (aham-vritti, I-thought). WAI puts the axe to the base of the tree (of samsAra).
  9. To think that we can arrive at freedom is wrong. We need to question the reality of our bondage.
  10. Body and mind keep changing in time. The liberating insight has nothing to do with time, for it is not an activity (karma).
  11. See.

Swami Chidananda
Monday, January 13, 2003
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Three (Advanced): What Really Matters, and What Does Not.
  1. How we live really matters; what we preach does not.
  2. What we do matters; the image people have of us does not.
  3. Understanding life’s purpose matters; hordes of ideas from books do not.
  4. Constant awareness matters; success in self-discipline does not, when it consists of a set of rules that we borrow and impose on ourselves.
  5. Being awake in the present moment matters; the past, however glorious, does not.
  6. Teachings matter; the figure of the teacher does not.
  7. Quality of work matters; the quantity does not.
  8. Search for truth matters; attachment to a belief does not.
  9. Sensitivity to beauty and suffering matters; being scholarly does not.
  10. Inner transformation matters; external cultivation (of compartmentalized values) does not.
  11. An open mind matters; lofty opinions (with rigidity) do not.
Provoking thought matters; your accepting the above does not.

Swami Chidananda
Monday, January 27, 2003
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Four (Advanced): The Eye of the Storm
  1. In pure love and harmony, there is no 'me' separate from 'you' or 'them'.
  2. The wise have no ego. (Hard to comprehend, is it not?)
  3. Most of us are otherwise. We have this center in us, psychologically, that desires (for example) success.
  4. Have we understood this urge to have some position of authority, power or prestige?
  5. The rise of this center denies love, and makes us violent.
  6. Does the ego disappear by merely deciding to be selfless?
  7. Only unbiased attention can lead us to the roots of our ego.
  8. Mechanical steps cannot help.
  9. Can meditation be mechanical?
  10. Anything that has well-defined steps is mechanical.
  11. The 'Who am I?' inquiry requires tremendous attention.
  12. It is not steps (doing); it is a search (looking).

Swami Chidananda
Monday, February 10, 2003
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Five (Advanced): Blossoming Of Virtue
  1. All of us value a life of virtue and look down at bad conduct or vice.
  2. We have hundreds of ideas of how we should be.
  3. There is a gap between how we should be and how we are. Therefore there is conflict.
  4. Afraid of judgment by others, we hasten about some virtues. We build and protect an image of ours.
  5. There are two perils in this hasty character building.
  6. First, the values we seem to have are shallow. They are part of our behavior to the extent others can notice, and not further.
  7. Secondly, we neglect many other values that people around may not attach importance to.
  8. True values bring peace and energy. The first problem above is reflected in our not having peace or energy despite the (socalled) value.
  9. True virtue brings fearlessness. The pursuit of virtue for respectability does not free us from fear.
  10. Clever cultivation of values, however carefully done, does not lead to blossoming of virtue.
  11. True virtue blossoms when we see -- in its entirety -- the vulgarity of our living, when we suffer our inadequacy in quiet observation.

Swami Chidananda
Monday, February 24, 2003
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Six (Advanced): The Enlightened Ones
  1. They have no boundary to their sense of “I”.
  2. Great good happens around them.
  3. Their identity is submerged in the universal truth.
  4. They are awake. (The dream of worldly gain and loss has ended.)
  5. They are drawn to God like iron filings to a magnet.
  6. They have tremendous energy.
  7. The excitement of personal aspiration has subsided in them.
  8. Their bliss is not born of any comparison.
  9. Their primary vision remains changeless.
  10. Natural austerity (not forced in any manner) brings increased glow to their personality.
  11. They are unmoved by the play of (their own or others’) mind.
  12. They are in touch with silence amidst all noise.

Swami Chidananda
Monday, March 10, 2003
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Seven (Advanced): One Ego – Many Faces
  1. The ego is born in forms (roopa), stays in forms, and consumes forms.
  2. It drops one form, and without delay, takes another form.
  3. Its inner truth is without form!
  4. Its forms disappear upon inquiring, “Who am I?” (The essence – Pure Awareness without forms – remains).
  5. It is neither the body nor the Awareness. It is something ‘in between’.
  6. It assumes the ‘form’ of the body and pretends to ‘know’ as Awareness does.
  7. Its names are many: ego, knot, bondage, subtle body, mind, worldliness and individual soul.
  8. Its appearance breathes life into the appearances of ‘he, she, it and they’.
  9. Its advent makes ‘past, present and future’ (time divisions) look real.
  10. Its emergence brings a sense of reality to ‘here and there’ (space divisions).
  11. Its rise makes all our problems look real.
  12. Searching for it is the way to complete victory in life.
(Basis: Maharshi Ramana’s Saddarshanam: verse 27 for points 1 through 4; verse 26 for points 5, 6 and 7; verse 18 for point 9; verse 19 for point 10 and verse 28 for points 11 and 12.)

Swami Chidananda
Monday, March 24, 2003
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Eight (Advanced): What am I?
  1. Sri Ramana Maharshi highlighted the question – Who am I? The teachings of Jiddu Krishnamurti prompt us to inquire – What am I? (Or what is I?)
  2. What makes the self? Is not the sense of ‘I’ just a construction of thoughts?
  3. In our fear, who (what) is afraid? In our pride, who (what) is proud? Who (what) is hurt, when we feel hurt? Is there a self other than fear, desire, doubt and envy?
  4. Is the self a physical entity or a mental affair? (Hardware or software?)
  5. Is the self a summation of our conditionings? Is it a product of memories?
  6. Why are some pleased, but others displeased, in the same situation? Are not all of us programmed differently? Are we mere programs?
  7. Considering the repetitive nature of our responses to situations, does it not seem that the self in us is almost a dumb machine?
  8. In creative moments, we break habitual patterns of thinking. Do we not feel then that ‘something else’ within us operated then? (Was the self in abeyance?)
  9. In saintly equanimity, is there no ‘me’ to feel the insult or relish the praise?
  10. In great objectivity, unbiased observation, where does the (little) self go?
  11. Can we understand the structure of the ego? Can such an attempt itself weaken the self?
  12. Can an intense observation of say, insecurity, lead to its disappearance?
Note: HOLDING ON TO ONE RIGHT QUESTION is more valuable than knowing many answers.

Swami Chidananda
Monday, April 07, 2003
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Nine (Advanced): Pure Energy
  1. Strength is life; weakness is death. – Swami Vivekananda
  2. One gains strength from within; wisdom makes one immortal. – Kenopanishad
  3. Energy is always here, but normally it is involved in pursuing thought and is expended in thinking. (J. Krishnamurti)
  4. When there are selfish thoughts, we are caught in a small domain.
  5. Your own responses occupy your attention and use up your energy; the real world becomes secondary. (J.K.)
  6. “Who I am, what I need to become and how my worth will grow etc.” are examples of thoughts that cloud pure perception.
  7. Drawn from memories, restructured through analysis and modified by many forms of indulgence and resistance, the ego in us prevents us from living in harmony with the world around.
  8. The ego, though an illusion, appears as a real wall.
  9. Personal and institutional boundaries are all false.
  10. We need to see that our fears and desires are a big humbug. It is seeing, not doing.
  11. When there is no division between you and the world around you, the energy flows freely. (J.K.)
Note: The three quotes from Jiddu Krishnamurti are from the book The Transparent Mind by Ingram Smith, published by Penguin India.

Swami Chidananda
Monday, April 24, 2003
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Ten (Advanced): Dying
  1. Clinical death is when the body ceases to function. You and I will thus die surely one day.
  2. People asked Swami Chinmayanandaji, “What happens after death?” to which he replied, “I am more interested in what happens BEFORE death.”
  3. Spiritual masters tell us of a different death. When we know how to die, we know how to live.
  4. Normally we seek a continuity of our status, position and of our relation with our children, spouse etc.
  5. The ending of such seeking (of continuity) is a form of dying.
  6. Normally we live for a cause, for something very dear to our heart. We are afraid to let go of that cause – work, person or object. Living in fear is no living at all. Ending of fear is to live fully.
  7. When we truly let go of that cause, there is a dying. There is in it a great renewal.
  8. To live without a cause – strange, as it may seem – has the purest form of love in it.
  9. Violence in our heart comes to an end when we let go of our attachment.
  10. A very respected ideal, a much praised institution or a revered life-style may also be the content of our attachment (cause to live).
  11. In unbiased observation, personal seeking ends. The seeker, the seeking and the sought dissolve in a silent understanding.
  12. In such dying we are born again. Every day is a fresh leaf – green, bright and tender.
We salute Pujya Swami Chinmayanandaji whose birthday falls on this Thursday.
Om Sri Chinmaya sadgurave namah

Swami Chidananda
Monday, May 05, 2003
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Eleven (Advanced): Brooding is Feeding the Ego
  1. Notice directly how your thoughts are drawn from (the trash can of) the past.
  2. Can you have thoughts without a single shadow of the past? Try.
  3. When you brood over the past, you breathe fresh life into both pride and hurt.
  4. Judgments – she was wrong; I was right etc – get reinforced in brooding.
  5. Blame is like a smoke that covers the flame of attention.
  6. Brighten the flame; drop gently all blaming – others or yourself.
  7. Do not suppress thoughts either.
  8. Intelligent living requires rising above habit. Moment by moment, pay attention to actuality.
  9. For example, be gently aware of your entire room – of its beauty and its disorder.
  10. Be aware of the whole of your thought structure – its pretty and ugly dimensions.
  11. Do not add fuel to any attachment or to any aversion.
  12. Just do it and see how, without your engineering it, the mind goes through a transformation.

Swami Chidananda
Monday, May 13, 2003
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Twelve (Advanced): Conserving Energy
  1. You cannot have the cake and eat it too. You cannot dissipate emotional energy in worldly matters and aspire to touch the infinite also.
  2. Speak what is necessary and appropriate.
  3. Avoid unnecessary talk including uncalled for humor.
  4. Mature control over speech is the entry point to yoga.
  5. Keep wealth that is necessary to function in life with dignity.
  6. Avoid pomp and put an end to greedy, mindless acquisition.
  7. Pursue genuine, heartfelt desires for realistic goals of life.
  8. Give up ill-conceived and improper desires.
  9. Have healthy activities.
  10. Leave aside activities that are born of restlessness, comparison and unhealthy competition.
  11. Honor a few decent friendships.
  12. Learn to enjoy being alone.
(Based on Viveka-choodamani verse 368: yogasya prathamam dvaram)

Swami Chidananda
Monday, June 02, 2003
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Thirteen (Advanced): Living in Creativity
  1. Creativity is something that ‘happens’ in a certain state of mind.
  2. When there is an inner silence – even amidst challenges possibly – certain flashes occur.
  3. We need to let go of all fear or anxiety to arrive at this state.
  4. Creativity cannot be a means to an end.
  5. Such concerns as to become famous or successful, to gain respectability or social esteem etc come in the way of inner silence.
  6. The pressure to earn a living and provide for our dependents also is opposed to living in true creativity.
  7. True creativity is when the ‘I, me and my’ are suspended.
  8. It takes place when the ‘tomorrow’ does not bother us.
  9. When comparison (with others) stops and the desire to be superior subsides, creativity is facilitated.
  10. Psychological time (the distance between ‘what I am’ and ‘what I should be’) disappears making way to creativity.
  11. A vast silence is the backdrop of the burst of new energy.
  12. True creativity transforms us into fine human beings. It is not limited to mere inventions of science or creations of literature.

Swami Chidananda
Monday, June 16, 2003
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Fourteen (Advanced): Spontaneity

Do we always have to act under pressure – outer or inner? Is there not a way of living where we do things while enjoying an inner silence? Would it not be true integration of the personality when there is no conflict between ‘what we want to do’ and ‘what we actually do’? We are afraid of freedom, it seems. We are afraid we may go astray unless we subject ourselves to some rules, laws or vows. In the name of discipline, we often create and sustain a gap between our heart’s cry and our actual daily activity.

The society is our own reflection. No wonder the social morality also causes a lot of artificiality in all of us. While on one hand we feel suffocated, we rationalize it on the other by saying there is no alternative.

True enough, a behavior lacking moral restraint is no freedom. Swami Chinmayanandaji observed therefore, “Not to do what you want to do is freedom.” His reference obviously was to a perverted mind that is a slave to many compulsions and urges.

The case is different when true sensitivity is awakened in us. When our perception of events and persons is no more clouded by the past, we handle the mind in a totally different way. The control that traditional religion everywhere prescribes is very satisfactory to the mediocre mind. A mind that explores the issue more deeply sees through the contradiction in the proposal. Who controls whom? The entity that controls and the one that is controlled are both centered in the same ego – interested fundamentally in its own gratification or glorification. Sri Ramana pointed out, “It is a case of the thief-turned-policeman looking for the thief!” If we go to the root of the issue and notice directly the forces at work in our thought processes, a breakthrough takes place. That is true meditation when personal insights pull down the walls in our psyche.

We then arrive at an innocence (not dullness, please) and they mystery of living is resolved moment by moment. We walk through life with open arms.

Swami Chidananda
Monday, June 30, 2003
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Fifteen (Advanced): True Service

The sign of attachment is psychological dependence. Outwardly we may be serving; inwardly we are helplessly dependent upon the work! While appearing to be giving, we actually are there to receive. We have many expectations from people. If not materially, we seek emotionally and are hurt if people do not show love, care or recognition to us. We are in the grip of an old habit of looking for praise, anticipating appreciation and approval. Criticism throws us off balance. Even the other person’s raised voice offends us. We need to watch our mind’s weaknesses in movement. In an intense perception of the erroneous way, we deal a blow to the habit. We are then born to a new way of seeing. The healthy outlook admits no hurt.

The best in us comes out when we forget our identity and are absorbed in the act of service. Action takes place without the actor finding a place in our thinking. Self-importance is a bunch of thoughts that are busy in self-evaluation. Do I have to be conscious that I am doing a good act while my hands make a gift to a beggar? I see the man suffering and help flows spontaneously. Of course I check on what I can afford. I may also look into issues like whether there will be misuse of my gift. These considerations are different from fancying how generous I am or how I am better than before.

True service has a unique fragrance that is not the product of a plan, however clever.

“The best worker does her job free of attachment, without self-importance. She keeps going with enthusiasm and remains unmoved in success and failure.” Geeta 18:26

Swami Chidananda
Monday, July 14, 2003
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Sixteen (Advanced): Showing

She said lovingly to me, “Look, how beautiful!” I beheld the rainbow and exclaimed, “Ah!” As we both watched, there was just the rainbow; neither she nor I were present. She did not carry a thought, “I showed it to him” or “I have good communication skills nowadays”. I did not have thoughts like, “She chose me of all to show this wondrous thing to” or “How grateful I should be to her.” There was just the celestial arch in seven hues and time stopped.

Are there divisions in self-knowledge? We say the teacher shows the truth to the student. Are the teacher, the truth and the student three different entities? The three-fold situation is the usual, ordinary case when a man draws the attention of another to an object. The extraordinary scenario of the spiritual insight is unique. It is not any object that needs to be shown. The teacher shows ‘absence of ego’. She has no ego; she is no ego. The student sees the falsity of the ego. His ego vanishes in the seeing; he remains a presence that is devoid of ego. The truth – the seen – is now one with the teacher and the student. The undivided presence defies all ideas of space and time.

Seeing uncovers love and showing is its perfume.

“They shall instruct you the highest knowledge. They see the truth and are wise. Bow before them, inquire with their help and work with them. You will know.” Geeta 4:34

We do humble pranams to Pujya Gurudev Swami Chinmayanandaji – the one who showed to us great possibilities – on the occasion of his tenth anniversary of maha-samadhi, this Sunday, the 3rd of August.

Swami Chidananda
Monday, July 28, 2003
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Seventeen (Advanced): Watch and Shed

Alert living is the essence of true religiosity. We watch our reactions to various events and, then and there, learn about the forces at work in our psyche. Unnecessary inhibitions, baseless fears and false presumptions come to light as we observe our own behavior in its entirety. No book can answer the question, “What am I?” better than our direct, on-the-spot self-inspection. There is in books the peril of concepts such as ‘what I ought to be’ or ‘like whom I should be’. Concepts take us away from reality. When our mind is stuck with ideas borrowed from some book, we lack the awareness required to notice our errors in daily interactions. Somebody was absorbed in a book on non-violence. When a mosquito troubled her repeatedly, she got very annoyed and tried to hit the insect with that very book. Our scholarship is often seen to shield many an actual vulgarity in us. Lack of peace is the price that the scholar pays for keeping contradictions unresolved in his bosom. More books could be of little help.

Let us put the holy book aside, and see with heightened sensitivity what we are actually doing. How do we treat people in our daily relationships? Are we avoiding certain persons or certain topics? Do we talk with our spouse or child with a certain amount of superficiality, not willing to scratch the surface and let actuality show up?

Watching brings about startling discoveries. We see our cruelty, miserliness and manipulation in their nakedness. We shed them. A great relief follows, making life lighter. There is new energy.

Knowledge from books has more merit than any blind practice. Meditation is subtler than any scholarship. Abandoning the concern for selfish gain is much greater than meditation. Shedding brings instant peace. . (Bhagavad Geeta 12:12)

We do humble pranams to Pujya Gurudev Swami Chinmayanandaji – the one who showed to us great possibilities – on the occasion of his tenth anniversary of maha-samadhi, this Sunday, the 3rd of August.

Swami Chidananda
Wednesday, August 20, 2003
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Eighteen (Advanced): When Nothing Matters

When I am nothing, nothing can hurt me.
When there are thoughts, “I am something”, many things can disturb me.
So I put aside known descriptions of myself. I inquire, “Who am I?”
I put aside all changes and meditate, “I just see”.
To say, “I see” – you see – is great.
Thoughts lay the tracks of time. I stand on the platform of timelessness and watch.
Seeing is a quantum leap from doing.
Love and beauty are on a higher (and totally different) plane than thought and deed.
Thank God, I really am higher than time, thought and deed.
Selfishness is a mischievous illusion created by thoughts (responses of memories). When it subsides, there is love.
Time, which is death, is another illusion caused by thoughts. When it vanishes, there is beauty.

Swami Chidananda
Monday, September 01, 2003
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Nineteen (Advanced): Light of Understanding

The very way we see situations reflects our maturity or lack of it. We could perceive a scenario from the point of view of the prospect of profit or from the angle of view of possibility of service. Thoughts of gain and loss on one hand, and pleasure and pain on the other could cloud our grasp of a given state of affairs. To the extent we bring our personal gratification into the picture, we lose our objectivity. The man attached to the use of a hammer, it is said, sees every problem as having a nail to hit.

Right seeing can take place when “I, me and my” do not interfere in our perception. Neither the wounds of our past nor the glories of our bygone days have a role to play in our today’s experiencing. If they do, then we are in the shadow of the dark clouds of our ego. Sublime light marks our relationships when we participate in the unfolding events of life with the whole of our being. Memories limit us as thoughts of future (which are projections of memories) also do. Seeing, listening, touching, tasting and smelling are all intense when thoughts (of I, me and mine) stay out. Thoughts, however clever they may be, bring certain dimness into the moment’s experience.

Kindness, compassion, care and love – and a host of virtues that we may think of – come out truly when we do not think them out or plan them. They are never conceived. They are not concepts. They are real. They are true life. Sattva is the medium for true life to shine forth.

When rays of light stream forth from every pore of your body, know then that your understanding of life is mature and balanced. Geeta 14:11

Swami Chidananda
Monday, September 15, 2003
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Twenty (Advanced): Live Rightly.There is No Other Way

Live rightly. There is no other way to true happiness.

Be true to your conscience. Stop fooling yourself. That way you will not deceive anybody. You cannot hurt anyone when the flame of your inner voice is burning brightly, without the smoke of indulgent compromise. Nobody can cause fear in you when you have decisively abandoned all selfish seeking.

Living rightly is living with intelligence. It is not just following mechanically any precept or formula, no matter how well conceived it is. Life defies any rigid formula or law, for its spirit of love and freedom longs to touch eternity and to feel infinity. All laws, clever verbalizations, are limited by time and context. What is right for you may not be so for another. What is right for you today may not be so for you tomorrow. That does not however mean that you take the law into your hands without rhyme or reason. Do not play with fire without understanding its ways. When you know fire and its ways thoroughly, it is your friend and your relation has dimensions not seen before.

Eat rightly in quantity and quality. Let not your tongue – the little one that often demands a lot – hijack your whole body. Enjoy life and its rich variety of sounds and colors. Let not your soul be caught in the cage of pleasure for even a moment.

Live rightly. Live long. Be ready to go any moment.

If you eat excessively, you fall from the state of yoga; if you eat too less, you again slip from right living. Lying on bed for too long denies you the joy of the right consciousness; denying to yourself adequate rest also takes away the peace and strength of yoga. Geeta 6:16 (slightly adapted)

Swami Chidananda
Monday, September 29, 2003
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Twenty One (Advanced): No Hurt, No Pride

We gain pleasant or unpleasant experiences as events take place in daily life. We brand external factors as good or bad and fail to see that internally, our outlook contributes significantly to the quality of our experiences. When we seek personal gratification, that seeking colors our perception. Also, we are elated if things go our way and are hurt if otherwise.

What happens when we do not seek anything for ourselves? Can the seeker – of pleasure, position or praise – go out of the scene, and can we meet life with an open mind?

The open mind is certainly not a dull mind. It is very sensitive to beauty, to pain and to genuine needs of life. It is free from cravings born of residues from past experiences. Mechanical repetition of “I want such and such response from so and so” is absent. The mind is ready to welcome the new, the unknown.

Such a mind does not stand in the way of truth. Like a tender blade of grass, it swings to the breeze of real life. The rigidity of pre-conceived notions about how things should be is absent here.

When we work with such a mind, success and failure lose their grip over us. A graceful silence and a light, cheerful bosom mark our journey through life even as myriad events of many hues continue to appear on its canvas.

No agitations come to her, who performs all her actions abandoning personal attachments. She offers her work to truth and lets truth have its way. She is like the lotus leaf, which does not get wet even when water is upon it. Geeta 5:10

Swami Chidananda
Monday, October 20, 2003
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Twenty Two (Advanced): Equal Vision

The world looks different when our ego – with its demands – ceases. When we have a sense of material poverty, a rich man attracts us and a poor man annoys us. We welcome the wealthy and regard the poor as a nuisance. We have plans to receive, collect and benefit from the affluent. Our mind cannot tolerate even the sight of the have-nots, for what can they give us? We hardly realize that our inadequacy and the resulting urges and aspirations are mainly a psychological phenomenon.

When there is a radical change in our mind, we see the millionaires and the middle class as not much different. We see them both as human beings, with pretty much the same suffering in their lives. Both of them have fleeting joys and lingering sorrows in their relationships. Envy and fear trouble them both. By the token of love in their hearts, both of them are mostly poor, for shallow is their living and they know not what true giving is.

When we have nothing to lose or gain from them, the scholar does not cause envy in us and an illiterate does not make us feel superior. We know their difference; yet we look at them with an open mind, with an unruffled stillness in the depth of our hearts.

Seeing all equally, seeking no self-gratification anywhere and fearing no damage to our image, we enjoy a harmonious relationship with the world around.

The wise ones see all equally. A learned man of religion, full of humility, a cow, an elephant, a dog and an eater of dog’s meat are all the same for them. Geeta 5:18

Swami Chidananda
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Twenty Five (Advanced): The State of No Division

The natural state of being has no divisions that are otherwise created by thoughts. When I look at a beautiful car, thoughts such as, “How beautiful this model is! Its color is truly marvelous!” do not cause any division. However, thoughts like – I am not its owner; Ramesh is – create the division of I, he etc. Also, thoughts like – I had such a good car once; now I do not possess it – also bring about the division of (psychological) time.

Can one perceive something without a set of thoughts describing oneself? The absence of the self is the essence of the undivided state.

One cannot eliminate the self, of course, by deciding to not have it. The very entity that decides so is the self. The contradiction would be like a man shouting loudly, “I want to remain silent”.

“How do we get rid of the ego?” is a popular question that is steeped in habit. The questioner does not suspect that if there is a “how” (a method) to this affair, there is then an entity that would execute that method. Who would then end that entity?

There is a SEEING in which all ideas of (spiritual) practice are exposed as sustaining the self. The practices then quietly subside. The self that wishes to be free from ego (and get enlightened) disappears without being either the object of a query or being the subject (agent) of any practice.

Do not therefore take any spiritual practice for its face value. Examine deeply the nature of thoughts – including those that are engaged in the so-called sadhana (spiritual practice). When you see the sad limitations of all thoughts, however noble they may be, the curtain will rise for the true vision.

Swami Chidananda
Monday, March 5, 2004
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Twenty Seven (Advanced): The Paradox of Self-control

Are you attached to certain notions of self-control? Has it become a mechanical affair with you to go through the cycle of error, guilt and the resolve to improve yourself? Has such repeated activity led you to judge yourself in a limited and rigid fashion? Has it also caused some limitation in you with regard to accepting others as they are?

No one can deny that there has to be order in our living. Life ought not to be such that everyone just does whatever he/she wants to do. Freedom should not turn into an abuse of liberty. Also, we need to be sensitive to the feelings of fellow beings.

However, the intriguing aspect of self-control is that we dissipate our mental energy in the form of swinging from pride to shame, from feeling good to feeling guilty and from adoration (of another person) to anger (with him/her). Many a time, our understanding of the matter is shallow, and yet our reactions are emotionally strong. This leads to a lot of conflict within us and to interpersonal problems too.

As we take a mature look at this issue, we come closer to realities of life. Instead of fretting and fuming about the so-called moral lapses of our own or of others, we examine our conditionings and recognize the areas where undue or unrealistic importance was given to some behavioral practice. Seeing these zones of self-created causes of excitement or depression, we gain much objectivity and a balanced view of things. In such a sane outlook, the indiscipline in us fades away on its own.

Self-control is at its best when we change through proper understanding and not through fear of being judged as bad. There is a natural and spontaneous right doing where the desire for reward does not raise its head. Wanting to be considered as the right-doer, the role model for others etc. is indeed a vicious intruder in our true blossoming.

We do not arrive at order when we try to control. Order just happens when we gain insights into the disorder our conditioned thinking has created.

Spiritual seekers are fond of the topic of self-control as the human mind is heavily conditioned to think in terms of dos and don’ts (vidhi and nishedha). What we should do and what we should avoid are essential elements of the programming that our mind is subjected to. The specifics and the details vary from time to time in the same person’s life. Pride, shame, fear and guilt invariably follow our notions of righteous living along with the frustration at not being perfect.

A man sat for meditation thinking he would just sit and watch thoughts. He told himself, “I shall completely avoid any specific plan and watch thoughts as they arise.” Very soon he was choosing and rejecting, “I should not have these (bad) thoughts; I should pursue those (good) thoughts.” Concepts of good and bad bring the pressure of wanting and avoiding. Can we see thoughts without any judgment hijacking us?

No wonder the novice looks at even the highest wisdom as something that she ‘should’ gain. She is comfortable to think, “The Self may be ever-established (nitya-siddha); but I should remove the veil of ignorance and realize the Self.” For this achievement to happen, she is convinced that she needs proper self-control.

What is the ‘I’ that controls – in this matter of self-control? The ‘I’ certainly has identified areas where control is important and feels attracted to certain objects. Is not such an ‘I’ itself a conditioned or programmed entity? We need to understand this ‘I’ before conferring on it the captaincy in the matter of self-control. Is it not the typical case of the thief-turned-policeman?

Self-control has its shallowness of understanding; it creates its own duality. The very mature ones are not satisfied with its framework. This however does not mean that the deep thinkers okay licentiousness. They do not swing to the opposite extreme.

Not falling into the trap of any idealism or other conceptual limitations, we examine our living. We gently notice the judgmental activity that our mind indulges in.

Swami Chidananda
Monday, April 17, 2004
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Twenty Eight (Advanced): Being Cheerful

We are cheerful when our mind is not weighed down by (thoughts of) problems. A bird flies easily when we set it free from strings that have tied it down. Our mind has lightness if we make it free from unnecessary memories.

Some have sad thoughts of how they failed in some materialistic venture. Others have regrets at how they have failed morally. Either way, a self-judgment weighs one down. Weakened by such thoughts, we then perform poorly again. This poor performance makes our self-judgment go down further. What a vicious circle!

We need to see how our mind has become a machine, highly repetitive in its ways. We may be educated, sophisticated, knowledgeable and smart in public eyes or our own self-evaluation. Actually we are programmed gadgets. We are caught in various fancies, some of which may be respectable in this confused society. Our whole life needs a radical overhaul. To set our own house in order is of great urgency.

The illusion in which we are caught is nothing but the past, to put it summarily. Our mind, with all its limitations, arrives at a conclusion of how unworthy we are, based on memories of past events. We then moan about our shortcomings and failures. How valuable we are becomes an issue of importance to us, rather than how we can be valuable to people around us.

A judgment of how much we failed is one side of the coin while the other side is hoards of thoughts on what we may become. No wonder the idea of self-improvement is attractive to large numbers of people. We are excited to think about what we would become. In the process, we are shackled more and more by thoughts. The dust that these thoughts raise dims the light of awareness of the present moment and of what we are.

Please know that the mind (thoughts) itself is our bondage. The mind is largely, if not fully, workings of memories. Memories feed on memories and reinforce the self (ego). Only the bright flame of attention can undo this whole mischief.

Just as the snake sheds its skin, we should shed our past – over and over again.-The Buddha

Swami Chidananda
Monday, May 17, 2004
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Twenty Nine (Advanced): Love of Nature

“Man has lost touch with Nature,” lament wise people about our today’s industrialized society. We have moved even physical exercise indoors with varieties of sophisticated health maintenance equipment. Is it not pathetic in a sense to see somebody run on the treadmill (reading sometimes a newspaper also at the same time) when there is wonderful sunshine outside?

To say, “I must allot time to be with Nature” or “I should become a nature lover” is not quite the proper approach. Our relation with Nature should not become one more compartmentalized activity of life. We must eliminate the root cause of our unbalanced lifestyle. Can we not take note of the general evil that has besieged us? We live in a number of self-created artificialities and there is constantly pressure upon us to protect our positions (to which we are attached). Psychological prisons prevent us from walking to the lap of Nature. Our thinking patterns have made us bookish; some of us may see mountains and streams on the computer’s monitor (or TV) more often than actually in the real world.

We need to examine, “Are we attached to the fanciful machines? Are we afraid of lagging behind in some sphere of work, knowledge or talent? Are our habits holding us captive? Why has our living become unnatural?”

Negating the falsehood at the center of our living can facilitate outer change in many ways. Awareness of the vulgarity of our fears and attachments can bring in us a basic change, releasing fresh energy to live rightly. Pursuing fundamental questions like, “Who am I?” and “What am I here for?” paves the way to a certain radical change in us. Outer transformation then follows naturally.

Vast space, a gentle breeze of fresh air, the warmth of the bright sun, the placid waters of the lakes, and the enchanting green meadows beckon us to our source – mother earth. Grand expressions of the five elements (space, air, fire, water and earth) are eager to heal our physical and psychological wounds and give us new life everyday. What is that insensitivity in us that keeps us trapped between the four walls all the time?

Act now and get out of the mechanical way of living. Move freely in this grand Creation. All outer cages are the result of inner entrapments. Break free of those limiting and weakening thoughts and you will see that order returns to your life just like that.

Just as the snake sheds its skin, we should shed our past – over and over again.-The Buddha

Swami Chidananda
Monday, June 21, 2004
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Thirty (Advanced): Meaning of Upanishad

The liberating wisdom, and not any book, is the primary meaning of the word Upanishad. We may read or teach books, chant mantras, and study many explanations of the mantras. Our actual life may be no different from that of any worldly man. Fear, envy and attachment may mark our relationships. Ambition may not leave our heart. The ego in us may be active in some new form. “My institution or country” is a clever disguise, for example, for the self. Is there then Upanishad in our life?

Shri Shankaracharya, while introducing the Kathopanishad, exhorts us to understand that the litmus test of our Vedanta is that the very seeds of the egoistic living be burnt. Upanishad means the ‘destruction’ of ignorance. Again, Upanishad means that wisdom which ‘leads’ us to the Infinite Truth.

Being scholarly does not ensure freedom from negative self-judgments. Learned people are often seen to burn with envy at the sight of other scholars being better recognized or more rewarded. That is a sure sign of their remaining caught in the web of thoughts. The smoke of egoistic conclusions then covers the flame of awareness in them. They lack openness. They lack psychological simplicity. They are in the shade of, if not in the darkness of, aham-vrittis (thoughts describing one’s identity and worth). Time has them in its clutches. Eternity is just a concept for them.

To call a book Upanishad is best justified in a secondary sense. The study of the book is to awaken in us the wisdom, which alone, once more, is the true meaning of Upanishad. Therefore the book has received much honor traditionally. The truly wise know the serious limitations of the book.

Certain teachings leading to concentration of the mind, attainment of powers and to heavenly pleasures may also sometimes be referred to as Upanishad. This too is in a secondary sense. Upanishad does not bring about any achievement in the usual sense of the term. All achievements – as we usually conceive them – are in time and they perish. The insight that the ‘me’, which wishes to achieve, become somebody or regain some lost status etc. itself is false – is the key to liberation. Then we are out of time, though living in time.

Swami Chidananda
Monday, July 19, 2004
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Thirty One (Advanced): Do Not Undervalue Old Age

First, read this Chinese story.

There is this old man who is too weak to work in the garden or help with household chores. He just sits on the porch, gazing out across the fields, while his son tills the soil and pulls up weeds. One day, the son looks up at the old man and thinks, “What good is he now that he is so old? All he does is eat up the food! I have a wife and children to think about. It is time for him to be done with life!” So he makes a large wooden box, places it on a wheelbarrow, rolls it up to the porch, and says to the old man, “Father, get in.” The father lies down in the box and the son puts the cover on, then wheels it toward the cliff. At the edge of the cliff, the son hears a knock from inside the box. “Yes, father?” the son asks. The father replies, “Why don’t you just throw me off the cliff and save the box? Your children are going to need it one day.”
(The story is taken from the book Still Here by Ram Dass.)

Old is gold. Old people in our society have wisdom while the young have energy. The old have quietude that comes from emptying the mind. The young have efficiency and their minds are filled with information. The elders have an understanding of what is truly important in life. The young are constantly busy with acquiring what is new. The aged have their eyes on what is lasting. The youths chase dreams of glitter and glamour.

Today’s young will indeed be old tomorrow. Today’s old were young yesterday. Nobody stays young forever.

To mock the old is surely an error. To respect them is a sign of one’s own maturity.

Swami Chidananda
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Thirty Two (Advanced): Superconductivity and Karmayoga

Doing all one’s duties and yet remaining calm is easier said than done! The karmayogi just does that. He works but his mind has no unnecessary anxieties. In Physics we learn about superconductors, which carry current but do not have loss of energy in such forms as heat. The karmayogi’s case is like that. He participates in the transactions of the world as per his skills and capabilities. Thanks to his detachment from the gain and loss in all the works, he remains cheerful at all time. He greets every new day with a light, fresh mind.

In contrast to the superconductor, an ordinary conductor lets electric current to flow through it but gets heated up to varying extents. Technically, we say there is energy loss in transmission. Most of us work like regular conductors. We do reach certain performance levels but suffer much stress in daily life. We do not act fully and the best in us does not reach the field of work.

An insulator does not allow current to pass through it at all. No wonder it does not get heated: electricity is not passing through it. A man who does not act at all, by taking no responsibilities, is like that. It is not a big deal. A prospective tenant asked the owner of a house, “Does the roof leak?” The house-owner replied, “Not at all, except when it rains.”

The true test is when challenges stare you in your face. A superconductor lets energy flow through it but remains at the same temperature as before. A karmayogi learns through relationships without escaping from them. Winning sometimes and failing at other times, he does not cling to his image, good or bad. Thus is his detachment to the results of karma. In success, he does not form a good picture of himself; in failure, he does not allow a bad portrait of his to be made in his own mind. Remaining aware of all events, he stays objective and not image-conscious. He embraces neither the thought, “I am good” nor the one, “I am bad”.

You will enjoy peace when you give your best to your field of work without attachment to success or failure. You will suffer unnecessary agitations when thoughts of results occupy your mind. Geeta 5:12

Swami Chidananda
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Thirty Three (Advanced): Peace amidst Pressures

Modern living puts every one of us under varieties of pressures. The rich ones among us and the poor ones as well are torn apart by the forces of this cruel society and by the ways of this mad world. Even as we the adults have our own hard challenges in the professional and domestic spheres, our children are facing new problems, which are also indirectly affecting us. The ever-increasing competition, the explosion of information, changing lifestyles and the age-old generation gap are causing anxiety to the young ones. We find that our children are likely to adopt false values in this degenerating society and suffer as a result. Our own duty in such circumstances becomes quite unclear. Should we just encourage them in all that they do or should we advise them in a different direction?

The first step towards gaining peace amidst all this chaos is for us to gain clarity of thinking within ourselves. Do we want to live mechanically, just imitating the trends around us? Should we not examine our way of living? Do we want mere outer glitter and glamour? Should we not seek inner substance? Do we want to settle for some partial success in life with gaping wounds in other aspects of life? Should we not go for balance and beauty in the whole of life?

Search for deeper values, respect for human dignity, value for clean environment and love of nature can be some of the facets of right living. Peace and strength can be ours when we are free from the unnecessary conflicts that arise from chasing illusions and subscribing to vain ideologies.

Swami Chidananda
November 8, 2004
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Thirty Four (Advanced): The Still Center

You are in reality the still center and have nothing to lose or gain in any activity. You are aware; nay you are the awareness. Mere thoughts make you seem the victor or the loser. If thoughts do not filter your understanding, you will have no difficulty in seeing your own changeless nature.

Relativity is maya (the universal illusion). The rainbow, the rising sun and the moving moon are all examples of physical illusions. The sense of separate ‘I’ is the psychological illusion, which is at the root of your suffering. Let us call it the self. This self is the breeding ground of desire and fear, of hope and frustration. When you think you are depressed, the self is actually depressed. Therefore someone like Maharshi Ramana would ask you, “Find out who is suffering.” He would further prod you, “Who are you?”

While knowledge is very useful in functional matters, emptiness is of value in psychological freedom. You ought to know how to drive your car. Here, you have to draw from memory. If your mind loses its knowledge, you cannot drive the vehicle. Now, in relating to people, your being fully attentive to the present moment is of more value than carrying judgments based on knowledge/memory/past. This does not mean you suppress some memory related to the other person. Such suppression cannot make you good or wise. You rather understand intelligently how all judgments have serious limitations. Seeing the truth of how prejudice colors every one of your judgments, you suspend judgments. All past knowledge not only is questionable with respect to the understanding of another person, but also is a hindrance to your own being impartial. Memories condition your own identity and you go about evaluating the other person with a particular sense of self-notion. Self-interest accompanies this self-notion. Can you see the other person with no self-interest? To be free of self-interest totally, you have to be free from memory!

Use memory. Let not memory limit you. Let it not color your perception.

Swami Chidananda
Monday,December 06, 2004
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Thirty Six (Advanced): Integrity over Popularity

Taking integrity over popularity is surely the way to regain peace. Honest living bestows upon us serenity and lightness of heart. A simple refusal to either project ourselves as great or seek such an image in others’ eyes can spiral us upward towards the experience of harmony and bliss. This will be so despite many limitations and shortcomings in us.

A certain amount of (psychological) insecurity leads to making false promises or pretending. The lies then create more insecurity. The vicious circle soon becomes a veritable quicksand in which any effort then tends to make us sink more. The society – including friends and relatives – seem to put pressures upon us. We are afraid that, if we change, it will jeopardize the lives of those who depend on us. We also have the fear that those on whom we depend might reject us! Where is the way out?

We ought to shed all fears and face the reality of life. Fear is death indeed. We hardly live, when fear becomes a long-term guest in our bosom. Fear saps our energy; it cripples us.

Popularity is a hollow affair. It is of no true value indeed. It is a mirage that holds no water. To delight in it is stupidity and to seek it is a sure sign of ignorance. Popularity without true merit is as useless and harmful, as having people think we are very fit while we are actually sick and suffering.

Our aim should be to live a true life of substance. We should be made of real stuff. Integrity is like good health: we enjoy it irrespective of whether people recognize it or not.

Of course, living rightly should be neither just a wordy affair nor a matter of blaming others for the obstacles they put on our path. We would do better if we silently work on our own daily living. We have to relate with others with a lot of patience and perseverance. Hasty judgments and a tendency to shirk responsibility can leave us in mere concepts. Let alone victory, the battle has not begun then!

Swami Chidananda
Saturday, March 5, 2005
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Thirty Seven (Advanced): The Real Work

The real work before man is to set his own house in order. He has been living in fear for too long. That has caused much artificiality in him. He has been afraid of being rejected by the society and he has all along put up a façade to please others. “Will they deny love to me? Will they stop respecting me? Will they talk lightly about me?” Afraid of losing the privileges that he has enjoyed, he dances to their tunes. He does not really know though what they want from him.

He does a lot of things with friends and relatives just to be in their good books. He would not do them if he were really free. What is worse is that many of such things are what he imagines to be their needs. Even his religion has become a whole lot of unnecessary rituals which ‘have to be done’ for otherwise even the dead ones would be displeased with him. His business practices also involve doing things that would please many powers that could jeopardize his status, if not livelihood.

When will he live an original, simple life? When will he sing his own heart’s song? Does not a life of calculation, conformity or imitation necessarily bring much stress to him? It takes its toll on even his near and dear ones as they never find him at peace. Sometimes he forces them also to play his game.

Amassing wealth has no meaning when his inner life has no sunshine. His achievements are all empty for his soul is not at rest. The contradiction between his true longings and his external priorities affect his health also and a number of psychosomatic ailments soon catch him.

Sometimes he feels he has worked for some ideals in his life. Upon closer examination it becomes clear such dedicated work was also another subtle escape of the clever self. Working for a cause, for some great symbol and for a noble man is also very often the denial of truth. Whether we go about it fanatically or with care, these missions are divisive in their own ways and become another vested interest in no time.

Man can never conceptualize right living. When he sees through falsities and lets them go, there is a silent victory. Others may or may not hear the faint melody of the original song.

Swami Chidananda
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Thirty Eight (Advanced): Is Evil Outside Us?

What is evil? Harming others, causing sorrow to people or coming in the way of the good is evil. Since others and we are intimately connected, harming ourselves in any way is also evil. When we are not keeping well, it surely affects others. Forces that cause bad things to happen are evil; any wicked behavior is also called evil.

It is easy to see evil in the outside world. Selfishness is widespread and people generally have some personal interest in even the good that they do. Humanity is caught in an endless insecurity of sorts and all are looking out for more pleasure, comfort, wealth or fame.

With some careful observation, we see that evil is inside us too. Some of us may prefer to call it imperfections. We have pretty much the same conditioning that others in this world have. We too are interested in building our own empire, strengthening the walls of our fort and fortifying our image. Sometimes, at best, we are kind to certain people but are insensitive to, if not hard on, certain others. We exploit some and are charitable to some others. Thus we are robbing Peter to pay Paul.

To be truly good requires a revolution within us, a radical change. The man who says, “I want to be a good man” should see the trap in his thinking – there is an “I” which has to become something! He has to closely examine if this is not one more fulfillment of the self.

We are not talking of becoming ‘relatively better’. One says, “I was very selfish in olden days,” and adds, “I am much better now.” This self-improvement is indeed a vast field where, despite very many changes, the basic problem can easily stay unexposed. Comparing ourselves with someone else and patting on our own back in appreciation can soothe our conscience and put off the fundamental query.

Here and now, can we see evil – outside or inside – in all its fullness, without judging it? When we do not condemn or justify it, the complete watching can itself herald a basic revolution in our psyche.

Stress Reduction: Healthier diet, proper physical exercise, meditation that arises from true appreciation of higher values and an original pursuit of truth in life can contribute to ever increasing inner strength in us. Then the same issues that were causing stress to us will fail to do so. Thinking ‘we’ instead of ‘I’ and putting aside the self (selfishness) in us can open doors to real peace for us. Living a life of integrity, which means we keep our promises and avoid all gaps between word and deed, can eliminate certain root causes of psychological stress. If our efforts fail in spite of all good planning and execution, our only resort is humility where we gracefully and in dignity accept what life gives to us.

Raising Children: Neither pampering them nor instilling unnecessary fear in them, we can provide to our children the right atmosphere to grow. They must be helped to understand life in a first hand manner. There must be no distortion caused in their psyche. True education is really much more than learning all these academic subjects like Science or Mathematics. It is the flowering of goodness in them.

Spiritual Growth: Objects of pleasure tempt us and various sensations constantly try to hold us captives in their tight grips. In addition, there are the callings of sweet emotions, which are another vast realm indeed. True spirituality is right understanding of the physical and emotional worlds where we put things in their proper places and are not caught in any of them. Even as life brings to us pleasure and pain, or happiness and sorrow, we do not get stuck to any of them; rather, our main station is silence and love, simplicity and service.

Swami Chidananda
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Thirty Nine (Advanced): Empathy – A Component of Emotional Intelligence

When we have empathy, we are aware of others’ feelings and thoughts. We are not seeing things from just our perspectives only. We are not in our own world. We are rather able to put aside preoccupations for a while, and stand in others’ shoes and watch.

We “tune in” to how others feel. We understand and appreciate those feelings. Empathy is more than sympathy. In the latter, we just say or do something that comforts the others. In the former, we touch them in such a way that they are almost surprised how we echoed their inside. We “emotionally read” others when we are empathetic.

Empathy is NOT just being nice to the others. Very many times it may be the opposite. While we displease them, they all the same feel that we said something with which they in fact agree.

Empathy is NOT necessarily agreeing with the others. Our personal views may be different. Yet we acknowledge their feelings and they realize that we accurately know what they are going through. We first listen to the others in such a way that we know the reality in their heart and head.

When we voice THEIR feelings, and not just OUR concern, goodwill or best wishes, there is the fragrance of empathy.

Let us open up our hearts; truly know what our near and dear ones (or coworkers) are going through. In such right knowledge, everything good is born. Then the gates of love and compassion open.

“There is light in all the gates of the body. There is knowing. That is a state of purity. Sattva is then on the rise.”Geeta 14:11

Swami Chidananda
July 6, 2005
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Forty (Advanced): The Freedom of the Dry Leaf

The highly esteemed Astavakra Geeta compares the enlightened man (or woman) with a dry leaf (shushka-parna, verse 18:21). Having no desire of his own, without a personal agenda at all, he moves about in the world in utter freedom.

Fear drives us into activity many times and desire does so at other times. Talking of fear, some are afraid of gross things like physical punishment, financial loss or losing some facility or privilege. Others are afraid of not receiving attention, love or regard. We are afraid that our image in others’ eyes will suffer if we do not act in a particular way. Alas, many dynamic people among us are active out of sheer attachment to their image.

The truly free are those whose actions are not prompted by fear. Leave alone clinging to an image, they do not have a self-image! This makes the matter a bit abstract obviously for we cannot generally think of living without a certain self-image. Yet, in true freedom, one lives in a different dimension altogether. The dry leaf has no force inside it that drives it. It just goes with the wind.

Coming to desire, we have typically some imagination of a happy life. We believe happiness comes from certain objects, certain comforts and conveniences and certain ways of being received or talked to. We want them. How did we develop these beliefs? It is surely a set of conditionings. It is the work of memories of our past experiences. With our limited intelligence, we fondly cling to the memory of some objects or people while actually those objects or people may have changed a lot in the meantime.

The truly free are those whose mind is purged of all the psychological memories. They live in the present and are open to new avenues of happiness. A new place, a new acquaintance and so on are welcome. There is no resistance or aversion to change. The dry leaf does not tell the wind not to take it in certain directions.

Fear and desire are psychological factors that drive us from inside. These bind us; factors outside do not. The truly free are those who respond to situations with a fresh mind and go with the flow. Their yes and no arise from a pure evaluation of external factors and there is no personal prejudice, safeguard or agenda at all.

Swami Chidananda
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Forty One (Advanced): Limitations of Positive Thinking

A confirmed hunchback kept saying to himself, “I am straight; I am all right” and lo, he became straight! Everybody hears of the power of positive thinking and the miracles that autosuggestion and other techniques achieve. We cannot deny that our own thoughts have terrific power in them to change things outside and inside us.

However, truly healthy living requires a holistic approach and positive thinking falls short of it.

First let us see what negative thinking is. To undermine our abilities and say, “I cannot do it,” when actually we have the capacity, is indeed terrible. In such negative thinking there is understating of our gifts or, what is worse, an unfavorable (low, damaging) self-description while we are all right as a matter of fact. Such negative thinking holds us back from possible achievements and even harms us at times. Negative thinking sometimes can be about others too, making gross understatements (or even wrong, uncomplimentary judgments) of our friends, colleagues etc.

Negative thinking is certainly bad and positive thinking easily scores over it.

Coming back to positive thinking now, the problem with it many a time is that it overstates what we can do. So it is away from truth. And the miracle may not happen. Instead we may land in deep disappointment. Secondly, positive thinking takes a part (and not the whole) and focuses on it so much that lot of other things become unimportant. It thus breeds certain insensitivity in us. All activities centered in achievement have this problem. We get so excited about achieving something and becoming somebody that certain other aspects of life (and interests of others) take a back seat.

Positive thinking is based on will and, despite all its glories, this will (called will power sometimes) denies awareness. When we decide on a goal (unless there is a sportive quality to it), we cannot keep an open mind any more.

So in a manner of saying, “no thinking” is the best, where the call is for gentle awareness that frees us from the limitations of (any) thinking. It is not literally absence of thought, but is of the nature of ‘not being bound’ by the energy of mere thinking. Thinking springs from the realm of the known and we wish to open the doors (and all the windows too) to the unknown.

Swami Chidananda
September 15, 2005
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Forty Two (Advanced): The Essence

The essence of all spirituality is being free from the self. Considering that this self is made of memories, some describe this state as living in the present. Some would call it a vision of oneness. The dividing factor, the self, is absent in it. Some others appreciate it as undivided awareness and say that is our essential divinity. Yet others prefer to highlight love, which again is natural when no personal concern raises its head. Personal concerns revolving around “I, me and my” are shackles indeed.

It is indeed a sweet puzzle that I realize my true nature when the ‘I’ in me ceases to be. The salt doll (the seeker), Sri Ramakrishna observed, realizes the depth of the ocean (God) when it dives and loses its own identity, dissolving in the salty waters. As long as the separate self remains, our search is a (never-ending) wild goose chase. When the self is not, who is to search for what?

We know not from where our restlessness arises. The state of unrest expresses itself as some desire or the other. The fulfillment of the desire then holds the promise of rest, of true adequacy or of real completeness. In reality though, all satiation of desire is only temporary quiet and it is no better than a calm before the storm. Worse still, many an enjoyment of desire leaves behind such residues of memories, which, upon surfacing in the conscious realm, would disturb our serenity with more force than ever before. A complex and vast network of thoughts, memories, desires, hurt and hope holds us captives. We are held hostage by the machinations of our own mind. How strange!

A very subtle dimension of this problematic situation is that the thinker is himself/herself a product of thoughts. The policeman going around the town in search of the thief is himself the thief (in police uniform)! Can we see the truth of this conundrum? If we do, we shall instantly see that all effort is a contradiction in terms as the entity (the self) that puts in the effort gets validated, if not strengthened, in the process.

Be free of the self just like that, and not through some method, effort or analysis. Even asking how posits the self! Pure seeing alone, not thinking or doing, is the freedom.

Swami Chidananda
Monday, November 28, 2005
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
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Surge Forty Three (Advanced): Saying Goodbye to Past and Future

Much is said about living in the present but not many know that the essence of it is clearing the shadows of past and future. It is a matter of living in such alertness that disallows all irrelevant recall of bygone events. When you are intensely attentive, the self rises not. If it does, it stays not.

The self, the me, is the breeding ground of a whole lot of evils. The self is the desirer and from it arise desires. The self is the one that fears, and from it come forth fears. The self is the agent who owns pride and the problem of pride vanishes if no one owns it.

Not only material possessions but also acquisition of merit is a preoccupation of the conditioned self. Religious or moral merit is what our mind hangs on, many a time. Such a seeking causes guilt or shame when the inner judgment is that we did something wrong. It is of interest to watch the mind in movement at such times. The act and the judgment are two things. The act is often innocent or natural. The judgment is a reflection of our current value system, the bundle of conditionings we are carrying at the moment. A third factor is how react to the inner judgment. Stage one - I did it. Stage two - it was wrong. Stage three - I should not have been wrong.

In luminous attention, we see through the game that the mind is playing. Sri Ramana Maharshi talked of the thief-turned-policeman. The same fellow stole and later was searching for the thief. Who is this 'one entity' that acts as the thief first and as the policeman later? Who am I?

Do not just swing from one role to another, in this play of the mind. Stand apart and take a look at the director of the play. What is her overall agenda? Look at the self as a whole. Do not divide it into parts - the good side of me, the bad side and so on. Awareness without a trace of ego is above all such divisions of the good and the bad.

The past and future that tie us down are actually nothing but the resistance that our personal desire offers to a self-judgment within us. As thoughts rise (with their weight of judgment) about what I was or what I will be, lack of attention results in resisting these thoughts. Then we are stuck. Observe the thoughts quietly. They expose themselves in their totality and subside on their own. You then say goodbye to the past and the future.

Swami Chidananda
Monday, January 30, 2006
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Forty Four (Advanced): Grace and Power of Truth

“Truth alone wins,” (Satyameva jayate) is the ancient statement of the Veda (Mundaka Upanishad, Atharva Veda). Equated with God, Truth has infinite intelligence and the human mind has limited intelligence. To lose faith in Truth is tantamount to losing belief in God.

The corrupt seem to win in this world and the good seem to be losing. This is not so from a larger angle of view. When we see life in greater depth and larger scope, we discover that our usual ideas of victory and defeat themselves are shallow and therefore defective. Leave others. Just think deeply and find out what corruption, deceit or lack of integrity would definitely do to our life. We might certainly grab some pleasure, position or power by our selfish, clever or dominating ways but pretty soon those achievements cease to have significance or value to us. What is more, our wrong ways leave behind such impressions on our psyche that we feel lonely, isolated.

Hardly anyone of us has lived a totally virtuous life. We have made mistakes. If only we see our own inner unrest more clearly, we cannot fail to identify the damage that false values (that prompted those errors) have done to us. Examining life in its wholeness reveals the sad limitations of social position or economic stability. Deep inside we continue to remain insecure unless we let go of the self (our false ego) at the altar of truth.

Superficially, making money is regarded success and not having enough wealth is considered failure. While money certainly has its usefulness, to equate success in life with being wealthy is most immature. So is the case with the value we attach to fame, popularity and possessing talent etc. Alas, even spiritual teachers are measured in this world by criteria like how popular they are and how many influential people are their students etc.! Many gurus, who have rich and famous disciples, are actually groping in darkness for total freedom. They have not touched that ground at all, where the ‘me’ dissolves in the indivisible one. At best they have talked eloquently about God.

Life is short. Do not spend it away in the tinsel town. Do not judge yourself by those usual yardsticks like wealth and power. Do not conclude about others also hastily, merely looking at their external appearances. Your real journey is in the company of truth. Be loyal to it.

Swami Chidananda
Monday, April 23, 2006
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org


Surge Forty Five (Advanced): Wisdom: A Return to Childhood

Being clever or smart is not everything in life. Compared with those who are dull, slow or unskilled, the people with worldly wisdom may have a better time in this competitive society of ours. That does not however spare them from the inner problems of fear, envy, anxiety etc. A return to childlike innocence, by which we mean a total purity of heart, alone helps us live fully. Without it, we are unhappy even if the whole world is good to us! Our own mind imagines threats and dangers. It looks at certain people as enemies and certain others as all set to deceive us.

Wise people are said to be childlike (not childish). They do not keep any pride or hurt inside them. They do not bring forward things of the past to the present. If we praise or insult them, they may respond appropriately at the moment but there will be no residue in their bosom afterwards. The Vedanta work Viveka-Choodamani compares an enlightened person with a cracked pot. Try to fill the pot; you will not succeed. It leaks and is empty in no time.

Smartness is like a little hill. Its peak is called cleverness. When we climb upon it, we surely get a certain pleasure and a sense of relief. Very soon however we feel lonely and lost.

We climbed this hill from one side, which was called naivety. There was lack of aptitude to handle responsibilities. We were nervous when faced with challenges. We were afraid to meet with opposition. We were insecure. We depended on other people, wealth, status, qualification etc and criticism made us miserable. We looked at the peak of cleverness as the solution to all our problems. And we climbed the peak.

Climbing down back to side one is neither possible nor right. We now need to climb down on the opposite side. This new side is simplicity. It is this psychological simplicity, born of great intelligence, that puts an end to all our anxiety.

Here we have all the necessary knowledge to deal with life's situations with functional correctness. We have said goodbye to psychological complications like pride, false prestige, grudge etc. Deep inside us, there is now the emptiness of peace and light. There is the fullness of life on one hand, as we are not running away from life at all. There is, on the other, complete washing away of all negativity (therefore this emptiness).

Swami Chidananda
Monday, April 23, 2006
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org

Surge Forty Six (Advanced): Inner Strength-A Holistic View

 
            “Strength is life, weakness is death,” roared Swami Vivekananda, the lion of the Vedanta. True strength is obviously much more than physical robustness. We sometimes find a Gandhi or a Lal Bahadur Shastri who faces the influential and the mighty with calmness and dexterity and wins them over. Emotional stability and a clean heart that is free from conflicts and contradictions are necessary ingredients of inner strength. Physical wellbeing should never be neglected or undervalued for it is often the basic requirement for effective functioning.
            Broadly speaking, we may consider the human personality as consisting of the three ‘equipment’ namely the body, the mind and the intellect (BMI). Many other aspects like speech (which includes communication skills) and relationship skills can be regarded as falling within these BMI. A program for total self-development should include exercises for the continual improvement of all the three facets of our being. The physical body needs to be kept fit; the emotional dimension needs constant enrichment and our reasoning requires continual sharpening, assisted by an expansion of knowledge and awareness.
 
Body, A Precious Gift:
            Well-chosen exercises, nutritious diet and proper daily habits go a long way towards blessing us with excellent physical fitness. The old saying, “A sound mind in a sound body,” highlights the need for bodily vigor so that our mind too functions better. In today’s world, we have access to many kinds of exercises – from even distant parts of the world. Yoga, aerobics, tai chi, western workouts and a host of other systems are taught in cities around the globe. Someone however said to me once, “I watch a video of yoga frequently. That should keep me fit!” The video neither helps the viewer nor the TV. At another place, a chief executive confessed, “The only exercise that we do here in our company is ‘jumping to conclusions’!” We must opt for some set of exercises that keep all the physiological systems in good shape. Outdoor walking has its own value such as contact with Nature, while a number of indoor exercises – often with the help of machines, weights or other exercises – tone up the muscles or strengthen the bones, acting thereby as effective preventive measures against certain old age problems. The system of yoga, along with pranayama, has excellent benefits to both the body and the mind. As most people know, yoga is a vast and complete science that culminates in spiritual perfection.
            While opinions differ on what is most nutritional, all agree on certain principles like it is good to avoid much spice and excess of oil. Moderation in quantity has been a golden rule in matters of food. Some forbid meat and some other experts even ask us to avoid milk and milk products. Many ask us to drink lots of water but some criticize such a view saying it would unduly tax our kidneys! Lay people are confused when they hear all these conflicting viewpoints. One’s body is accustomed to certain food habits and it is sometimes highly unadvisable to suddenly make a drastic change. We have to go cautiously about these issues and make choices with honesty and courage, not in an immature or fanciful way.
 
Emotions, Our Valued Asset
            To be swayed by emotions can surely be a problem, but otherwise emotions are such a wealth within us that they are rightly called a source of human energy, information and influence. When we understand them well and handle them wisely, they can help us mend fences or move mountains. They touch our hearts and a rich life is necessarily one that is centered in the heart. To love and be loved is the greatest privilege of life, said Swami Chinmayananda, the popular teacher of the Vedanta (1916 – 1993).
            To put in efforts towards understanding our own and others’ emotions leads to an enhancement of our Emotional Quotient (EQ). By broadening our outlook, we can discard false judgments, which leads to the rise of healthy emotions within us. Just to be aware of the factors that activate particular emotions that arise in us paves the way to a better handling of these forces at work. We need to train ourselves to be rightly assertive in the face of injustice or some unfair treatment meted out to us. This means that we rise above all passivity that is inaction and at the same time avoid aggressive behavior that could be harsh or violent. Even skills that we develop to handle stress fall under emotional maturity for a lot of stress is the result of certain negative emotions making situations look darker than what they actually are. Developing empathy is another aspect of emotional growth, where we “emotionally read” others and thus relate with them very accurately rather than in some imagined way.
            Reading uplifting literature, contact with Nature, listening to soothing music etc. have an impact on our emotional personality. The rich literature in different languages has much to contribute towards the enrichment of our heart. For example, the Kannada poet (winner of the Jnan Pith award) Kuvempu sings, “Be free, O my spirit. Move on, walk on, and do not stop anywhere. Do not get confined anytime. Without any fixed home, go on with your infinite journey, enjoying your unbounded nature. (Original: o nanna chetana)” Such verses or passages are elevating. They are available aplenty in every language, be it Oriya or Telugu, Gujarati or Hindi.
            Growing in our emotional maturity involves a lot of ways. The highest means, of course, is keen observation of our own (and others’) emotions. We learn directly what goes on behind the rise, the movement and the fall of an emotion when we watch it on the spot. However, this requires a high quality of attention which is marked by total absence of judgment, bias or reactions within us as we watch the emotion.
 
Intellect, Our Far-reaching Tool
            Called buddhi in Sanskrit, our intellect helps us extend the horizons of our knowledge. Knowledge is power, they say. It surely is, in the domain of handling men, money and matters. As our civilization advanced, more and more sophisticated knowledge became available to us, which has resulted in tremendously enhancing the standard of living. Technology has joined hands with all other branches of knowledge like economics, medicine, political science and even sports. We can do thousands of things in much less time as compared with how things used to be at the time of our earlier generations. A number of inter-disciplinary subjects have become independent areas of study in the universities like nuclear medicine or chemical biology.
            However, in the context of developing inner strength, the knowledge of human values is valuable. A better understanding of right and wrong and a clearer grasp of why we humans suffer are examples of such knowledge. Study of such literature as would help us know our duties and responsibilities better, manage our resources like time more wisely, handle problems like stress more ably etc. could be considered an expansion of knowledge that contributes to inner strength. Knowledge of leadership qualities, love and friendship, right communication skills and healthy relationships certainly makes us strong enough to survive the many setbacks that typically beset our life.
            A program that thus enriches and strengthens the body, the mind and the intellect (BMI) contributes towards inner strength in a holistic way. We are then better prepared to live well, as this being with the whole brings us in touch with the center of our existence, the fountainhead of life.
 
Swami Chidananda
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org

Surge Forty Seven (Advanced): Embracing True Spirituality

It is natural that we get excited by the prospect of living a spiritual life, a divine life. This generally happens when some guru influences us with an uplifting discourse or even her magnetic presence. It may take place sometimes after a certain long association with a master. Some powerful books too are behind many of us turning to spirituality in a big way. Many ideas or concepts of what it is to live the ‘higher life’ arise in our mind. We plan to exercise a great amount of our will power to live rightly from the next morning itself – doing things like prayers, yoga, meditation, study of scriptures etc. And of course, our grand plan includes giving up many bad things – bad habits, bad company etc. The very thought, “I am going to be a good man from tomorrow,” generates a great feeling. Typically we begin earnestly with implementing a few of our points and it does give to us some satisfaction.
Life however is vast and complex. Everything tends to become mechanical pretty soon. What is worse, our own mind changes. We change our practices for something new begins to appeal to us. Sometimes even a new guru! Obstacles come our way. Distractions happen very often. Sometimes we go off track so much that it is years before we get back on it. It is like taking a wrong exit and losing a lot of time before being on the freeway again. Our own mental impurities are such that, rather than minding our own spiritual practice, we get busy judging other seekers and evaluating them. Countless are the perils and traps on this so-called spiritual path.
What is true spirituality? Which is the right path? How do we know we are on the right track? While a hundred traditions have all packed spirituality in their own ways, with their symbols and concepts, the essence certainly has not much to do with the packaging. Many practices surely help seekers to gain inner development but spiritual maturity has the fragrance of letting go of rigid and idealistic ways of being. Jack Kornfield, a well-known author, touches on this and gives an interesting instance of a young woman who had struggled greatly in the early years of her (Buddhist) practice in the face of family difficulties and the fundamentalist church to which her parents had belonged. She wrote, “My parents hate me when I am a Buddhist, but they love me when I am a Buddha.”1  
                The strength and the gentleness that arise with spiritual maturity touch the hearts of others whereas a mere belief system divides people. The flexibility that we discover within us as we grow in maturity is not the result of lack of will power or self-discipline but a higher understanding where we are able to keep issues in perspective, think about them in a reasonable way without exaggerating their importance. “Everything in its right place” takes precedence over “a place for everything” in this broadminded way of seeing things. A rigid mind is unable to appreciate another song while the flexible mind, enjoying a silence within it, is open to new rhythms.
                Lacking in ripeness, we turn spirituality and religion into what Alan Watts2 called “a grim duty”. Our sense of commitment to our chosen path may make us lose the natural inner kindness of our heart. Compassion takes a back seat and preconceived ideas of right and wrong dominate our thoughts and feelings. We need to introspect and detect these aberrations, and get back to our original, loving kindness. This requires great courage and honesty. Otherwise the fear of all our long practice going a waste would overcome us. The return to simplicity requires getting rid of any such fear.
                It all boils down to giving up pride, hurt, likes and dislikes. We must dare to be ordinary. Life’s situations may demand that we play certain roles, to which the society attaches some authority and power. However, we had better know that we are just one of the billions of waves upon this sea of humanity. It is just not possible to make a judgment about our worth and then sit upon it. We never know where we are. The moment we think we have evolved, that very thought causes a stain on whatever spiritual luster there was within us a split second before.
                Let us just be – doing things as they come, with all our heart. Let our flame of awareness not get dim by the smoke of thoughts that describe our path as right and that of others as faulty.
               
Swami Chidananda
Monday, September 25, 2006
End Notes:
1 Jack Kornfield: A Path with Heart, published by Bantam New Age 1993, page 309
2 Alan Watts: The Essential Alan Watts, published by Celestial Arts, 1977


Surge Forty Eight (Advanced): The Shinning Example

           An enlightened man is extremely rare to find in this world. When we do come to know about one and our lives are touched by him, the impact is tremendous. Just the dim awareness of his state of being gives our life a new direction. It awakens us from a very long, deep slumber and sets us on a path which we had neglected all along.
 
          How much energy we waste on the countless and endless matters of the world! After all that, we find we have hardly reached anywhere. Then we see how different the case is, with a realized soul. He has nothing with him and yet seems to have everything. He too lives in the same world of constant change, of innumerable limitations, but nothing seems to matter to him. Though time passes for him too like it does for all of us, his state of being appears to have a timeless quality to it. He is cool, calm and collected even in a crisis. He is strong and stable like a rock. Even death seems to be a small affair for him.
 
        Profound peace emanates from him. There is no conflict in his consciousness. He is naturally integrated and whole. There is no fragmentation of personality. This wholeness makes people refer to him as, ‘his holiness’. Childlike simplicity coexists with great, pure wisdom in him. Though he keeps away from the corridors of power of this world, enormous power resides in him which can totally transform even emperors. Abandoning any role in the petty struggles of people around him, he works in the subtle domain that tackles root causes of humanity’s problems.
 
          Uncontaminated detachment is his wealth. When the urges for pleasure, possessions and power have ebbed out, the undying energy of the soul does not get dissipated any more in pursuit of illusions. The wise man’s dispassion manifests as limitless compassion for all living beings. Expecting nothing in return, of course, he renders help to people – sometimes without even their knowledge.
 
           Established in the Self, he is free from the self. His conduct has the fragrance of universal love. His sweet nature makes him lovable by all. Absence of personal desires removes psychological boundaries between others and him. No wonder people feel one with him. Sometimes they get answers to their doubts in his mere presence. At other times he acts as a mirror for them to know themselves better.
 
          Tormented by life’s unending troubles, we often feel frustrated. At such times, the shining example of a sage, who is also in flesh and blood like we are, brings new hope and fills with fresh courage. We bow down to these men of wisdom.
 
Swami Chidananda
Varanasi, November 8, 2006
(Inspiration: Verse  Number 40 of Ganapati Muni’s “Forty Verses in Praise of Sri Ramana”)
 
 

Surge Forty Nine (Advanced): Ring In The New Year

     Years pass and years come by. Do we change at all?
 
      Do not lose hope; please know that you can radically change any moment, if you intensely desire to say goodbye your erroneous ways.
 
      Earnestness of desire illumines your thoughts so brightly that you will have total clarity of perception. Otherwise this wanting to change is yet another trick of an impure mind; it is another state of contradiction.
 
      Do not mistake superficial changes in your way of living for the true change that transforms the quality of your life. A well-chosen set of rules (or vows) has its place but could suffer from serious limitations too. Even as you get on with those terrific, new dos and don’ts, the real thief hides within you conveniently and comfortably. We find, in this world, very many people whose life is much regimented. They follow a lot of good rules apparently. We do not find them really selfless. They have surely done some good ground work but then stopped somewhere. The net result is that they are hardly different from all others. Their selfish movement is subtle and sophisticated. It gets institutional protection but it does not escape God’s eyes. When people rise to certain heights in organized religion, they get much acclaim from large numbers of followers or devotees. They know in their hearts how scared they are – as ever before, if not more.
 
       I do not mean, however, that good habits do not help. Right food, proper speech and moderation in all the areas where you tend to go a little overboard can surely facilitate a greater self-awareness which is the key to basic change within you.
 
      How do we then miss the key? Why does self-awareness slip through our fingers as though?
 
     We have lost true sensitivity. Our dulled mind moves within a known ambit of words, symbols and concepts. We do not realize how stuck we are with the same patterns of thoughts, however impressive they may look to (other) ignorant people. We are not letting go of our own vested interests. Consciously or otherwise, we are in the grip of some ‘ism’. We would not accept even God if He were to come in some form other than what we have conceived and concluded.
 
      Watch your fear silently and fully, as though you had never seen such a thing before. The fear has its structure and, what is more, the self (you) has its structure too. Both are operating like good old, well-oiled machines.
 
      “What do we do?” is a wrong question. If there is intense looking, then the right (and new) action emerges out of that perception. As long as you do not know (you have not seen) your wrong position, any action plan has no meaning. When you clearly see the basic error, a hundred previous possibilities become irrelevant right away.
 
      This (so called) New Year, breathe in and inhale just the pure, objective truth. Do not take in fancies and superimpositions. Breathe out and exhale all your unnecessary fear and pride. Let go of your hurt. Abandon all plans for revenge or teaching someone lessons. Live in calm alertness and it will have the right impact on everybody and every situation.
 
Wish you Happy New Year 2007!
 
Swami Chidananda
Varanasi

Email: chidananda@hotmail.com
Website: www.fowai.org

Surge Fifty (Advanced): The Sense Of Purpose

          I once asked the then Chairman and Managing Director of one of India ’s largest banks (Bank of India), “What is your tip on time-management?” Shri K V Krishnamurthy replied, “Be business-like in your meetings with all your visitors.” The language used sounds terse but the meaning essentially is spiritually sound. Saving time or any other form of valuable resource is possible when we stay with the sense of purpose. In the Mahabharata, Ekalavya symbolizes total commitment to purpose. Even when he was rejected by Dronacharya, the teacher of archery whom he had sought with all his heart, he did not lose heart. He practiced the difficult art all by himself in the forest and rose to great heights of mastery over it. He did not allow any distraction to weaken his learning activity.
            In daily life, we need to be aware of how we waste our energies in myriad ways. If only we watch just our speech, we shall find that our tongue roams in unnecessary domains. What is worse, we say things that lead to spoiled relationships. If we exercise enough responsibility when we converse with people, there will be much more peace and harmony in our lives. Moderation in speech, observes Vimala Thakar, is a way to conserving mental energy. Of course, no suppression is meant here. The economy of speech is brought about rather through right understanding born of vigilance.
            Disorder thrives on lack of care. There is a lot of chaos in the life of even the rich and the famous, of the eminent and in that of even the celebrities. Hardly anyone pauses to examine life. All are carried away by the powerful eruptions of their old, hidden, habitual tendencies. Much glory comes to them incidentally and thanks to a certain talent in a specific area, while the whole of life is vastly bigger than the area of their expertise. No wonder we very often find well-known personalities of the world confessing how lost and lonely they feel. Some of them go guru-hunting also, which may or may not help.
            The purpose of life itself is hardly clear to anybody. A lot of things that we do in life are all the result of some inner unrest rather than of clarity of purpose. An elderly man once asked a youth, “Why did you marry?” and the young fellow said honestly, “What else to do?” When we look back at our years, we realize how often we had acted impulsively, without giving thought to the matter. Someone ruefully remarked, “Youth is a time to err and old age a time to repent.”
            Some examples in history are inspiring where certain men staid focused on a chosen purpose to such an extent that an external force or event could not do much to distract them. The following instance is almost humorous too. During a fiery political speech at Ennis, Eamon De Valera (1882 – 1975), who would become Ireland ’s longtime president and prime minister, was arrested. Released after a year of imprisonment, he hastened back to Ennis, called a meeting and began, “As I was saying when I was interrupted…. “ However, the clarity of purpose and the commitment to it that we are considering here are of a higher order than a mere attachment to a cause.
            Hope lies in the fact that great intelligence lies within every one of us, which is usually veiled by a maze of thoughts born of ignorance. In the act of careful self-observation, many unconstructive or unhelpful thoughts get exposed; they die away and then the clear stream of reason from within us can find its way. We must train ourselves to weed out such useless (or even harmful) movements of our mind and stay focused on things that are worthwhile. Listening carefully to our own conscience, and respecting universal values like truth and non-injury, we can bring our mind (and ourselves) back on right tracks and live in much peace, love and joy.
            Rabindranath Tagore, in his Gitanjali1, prays to the Lord to help his country stay out of the ‘dreary desert sand of dead habit’. He asks God to keep him in a little of fetters whereby he is bound by the Lord’s will, and the Lord’s purpose is carried out in his life. The poet clarifies that the fetters are no other than the chains of God’s love for the devotee. We thus see that there is a way of living where our purpose is well-aligned with the Almighty’s and where we put in our effort in gentle submission to His will.
 
Swami Chidananda
Varanasi
Footnote 1: Gitanjali: Poems 34 and 35.


Surge Fifty One (Advanced): Zero Worship

We find in this world a lot of hero worship everywhere but in advanced spirituality we go for zero worship.
 
The hero is someone who has some extraordinary talent. He has performed brilliantly in his chosen field of activity. He may, in some cases, have a lot of wealth or a high position.
 
The zero is the quiet sage in whom the ego has died. He has become empty within – in a very desirable sense. This emptiness is then the secret of his feeling light all the time, with no regrets of the past or no anxieties for the future. Indeed memories of the past and projections into the future are quite a burden all of us carry normally. Since there is no ‘me’ in this sage of the highest wisdom, there is nobody (psychologically) inside him to feel sad about some event of yesterday or get afraid about some possibility of tomorrow.
 
“Being Nobody, Going Nowhere” is one of the works of Ayya Khema (1923 – 1997), the renowned Buddhist nun who inspired a lot of people on to the path of meditation and mindfulness around the world and prepared many women teachers of Buddhism. The title itself has a profound message. The high plateau of spirituality, be it Vedanta or Buddhism, talks of the ending of the individual self.
 
An illumined saint is sometimes compared with the donut – sweet all around but hollow in the center. (The South-Indian delicacy vada also illustrates this equally well.) She has a personality that blesses all around her with words of grace and acts of service. Within her, however, she is very silent. Great dynamism works around a still center in the case of such an evolved soul. Noble qualities of head and heart abound in her personality and her own inner experience is, “I do not do anything” (Compare Geeta 5:8).
 
In a special chamber of his palace, the king of a country had called a meeting of all the prominent members of his court. All had come and taken seats except the king himself. As all were waiting for him, a fakir